I sat for awhile today reflecting on life. What came to my mind were the people, places and things which make me feel uncomfortable.
One of the things that popped right to the forefront was needles. As a child I hated getting shots. I remember when we received shots at school or even the doctor’s office, I would be screaming like mad when the doctor came at me with the needle. Mother always gave me a hard time about acting like a baby.
I’m older now and I’m a little bit better, but I still get the butterflies in the stomach. But, could I take pills instead? I feel that in donating blood helped overcome most of the anxiety of needles.
I also don’t like loud noises like when my neighbor was/is doing construction on her backyard. The constant hammering or the use of a power nailing gun on the garden shed would drive me nutty. There would be the sound of the power saw for cutting wood. Then there is the sound of the machine that packs down the aggregate stone for setting stones to create the courtyard. Thump, thump, thump for more than an hour or two.
There are also lawnmowers and air blowers for the days that lawns are mowed.
My best friend through all this is ear plugs.
I also don’t like a noisy, crowded grocery stores. When I go, I like to go early in the morning or later in the evening. There have been times when I’ve become so uncomfortable that I let Michael finish up the shopping and I go sit in the truck. Plus, there are times I stay in the truck while Michael shops.
I found that street people, those who do not have a place to live and find food in dumpsters. Part of me wants to smile and say hi but I’m afraid they will carry it further and want a handout or ask me for something I don’t have or something I cannot do or care to.
I do give donations to the organizations that help these people. I feel I am doing what I can within my comfort zone.
That is what comes to mind at this sitting. Now the seed has been planted, there maybe more to write about.
mz. em
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Quote of the Day:
“There are two ways of spreading light; to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.”
— Edith Wharton
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Currently Reading:
“Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy” by Sarah Ban Breathnach
“Al-Anon Faces Alcoholism Second Edition” by Al-Anon Family Groups
“Writing for Your Life: A Guide and Companion to the Inner Worlds” by Deena Metzger
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