Archive for June, 2002

Sunday Summary

Waning moon in Pisces
20th day of lunar cycle

“Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music – the world is so rich simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself.”
— Henry Miller

Monday: I wrote about music. Since then I was turned onto Tom Russell. He has a CD out called Borderland. He’s a country western singer. What a voice! In some ways he reminds me of Aaron Tippin. I’ve been listening to this CD every time I come into write or am in my sanctuary. Tom also reminds me of some of Kenny Rogers beginning music and Willie Nelson. And to think I used to hate country western music.

Tuesday: I looked at my hobbies. I had to look the word up because I don’t feel I had any hobbies. However, the dictionary states that a hobby is “something one likes to do or study in one’s spare time. A favorite past time or avocation.” In my spare time I like to read, write, watch movies and do creative art stuff. One thing I do is decorate my journals. Either the cover or glues photos, words, and comics to the inside pages. Definitely makes them more fun. So, I guess I have hobbies.

Wednesday: I’m still not feeling well physically. My neck and back are bothering me tremendously. Luckily, I have my physical therapy. Oh goodie, I get to learn something new. I wrote about when I began keeping a journal. I need to type that one up and make it an entry. I called about a red VW Beetle I saw in a used car lot. It had high mileage and it was a diesel. I talked to my brother-in-law and he (he works on vehicles) said they were expensive to repair when they broke down. Yikes, that is not a car I would want. Michael made his yummy chicken burritos. This is what I call comfort food. By this date, I have two people who have signed up for my notify list. Yea! Somebody knows I’m here!

Thursday: Another night of experiencing night sweats. Menopause can be so much fun. I talked to Michael about this and he asked me what I was doing different. The only thing I could think of was I had cut back on my soymilk. Time to begin those breakfast smoothies again. This is the day I learned Michael had ordered the Life Journal software and it will arrive on Friday. I attempted to put the link in here but it wasn’t working. It is: http://www.lifejournal.com. What a guy, no wonder I love him so much. The pressure is beginning to build at work to get things done sooner for an early deadline due to July 4th. Us office workers get the day off. Using the new accupressure points, I do not have a headache today. Another reason today was a good day: I had truffles and cappuccino ice cream. Life does not get any better than this.

Friday: I had everyone in a dither at work because I wore a sleeveless dress. I hardly ever wear dresses, mostly jeans and T-shirts or a button down shirt. Not only do they see a dress on me but they also see my tattoos. Most folks ignored them but a few (these are the ones who have tats) came up to see the artwork. The Life Journal software is here and I get to play. Another day in paradise.

Saturday: A day to sleep in but I awake early because I want to play with my new software. A sunny day out too. It was nice to open up the doors and windows. I got a bit of housework done, watched some movies with Michael and even did my yoga. I so want my aches and pains to go away.

Sunday: Another day of sleeping in. I really got to use my new software in using the dream journal. I shan’t go into the dream here but it was an eye-opening one. Most times I have much difficulty interpreting dreams but I seemed to understand this one. Movies this weekend: “The Cable Guy,” Jim Carrey. Not one of his better ones. “Monkeybone,” Matthew Broderick. A different kind of movie and I did laugh a few times. “Moving Violations,” with Bill Murray’s son. I don’t remember his name at this minute but it was very slapstick. Dumb. “61,” the movie about Roger Maris breaking Babe Ruth’s homerun hit record. A very good movie and I’m not one to watch baseball much but it was good. “American Outlaws,” this one was about Jessie James and his brother and Cole Younger and family. A different take on history. It was fun to watch and the boys were fun to look at. And, my all time favorite, “The 13th Warrior” with Antonio Banderas. I believe I must have been a Northsman in a past life. I relate to this movie and to the story line. “Low there do I see my father…..” How I love this saying.

So this is my week in review. I’ve tried not to write about what has already been posted so do take a look at those pages if you haven’t.

I hope everyone has had a good weekend. Until tomorrow . . .


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Friday Five:

Waning moon in Aquarius
18th day of lunar cycle

When was the last time I:

1. Sent a handwritten letter?
Answer: I wrote to a friend in Kansas within the last two years but have not had a reply.

2. Baked something from scratch or made something by hand.
Answer: I don’t bake. However, I did bake holiday cookies four or five years ago.

3. Camped in a tent?
Answer: More than 15 years ago somewhere in California.

4. Volunteered my time to church, school or community?
Answer: I and a group of women facilitated a Lammas gathering for women and offerend workshops. Mine was on meditation.

5. Helped a stranger?
Answer: Donating canned goods at Thanksgiving and Yule.

Friday Five.org


I realize the last few entries have been short and sweet. This comes from not enough time in the day.
More shall be revealed tomorrow.

Ta ta.

mz. em

Quote of the Day:

“The noun of self becomes a verb. This flashpoint of creation in the present moment is where work and play merge.”
–Stephen Nachmanovitch

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Comfort Zone

Waning moon in Aquarius
17th day of lunar cycle

When I think comfort zone, I think of being at home.

Being at home, sitting before the fire, snuggled up with Michael and being lulled to sleep by the warmth and sounds of the fire.

Being at home and reading a good book with a delicious cup of hot tea.

Being at home and sitting on the deck watching the sunset.

Being at home and sitting out in the sunshine in my backyard.

Being at home and listening to the sound track of “Armageddon.” I love Aerosmith.

Being at home and meditating in my sanctuary. The smell of incense and the glow from the candle flame.

Being at home and sharing a barbecue dinner with Michael.

Being at home and listening to the dishes being washed while I watch a movie.

What is your comfort zone or what’s in your comfort zone?

mz. em


Quote of the Day:

“The painting has a life of its own. I try to let it come through.”
— Jackson Pollock


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What to write?

Waning moon in Capricorn > Aquarius – 3:36 p.m.
16th day of lunar cycle

As you know I missed yesterday’s entry. I developed a neck, shoulder and headache that even Tylenol wouldn’t dent. When I arrived home I used some of the doctor prescribed medicine and fell asleep. There is nothing like sleep to make one feel better.

The fun thing about the last two days is Michael bought me a new watch. Actually, he went out shopping for himself and found this watch for me instead. It is a Timex with an Indiglow face, red and yellow flames on the casing. The time is shown in a wavy line, it has a stopwatch, a timer and the best part: I can ask it yes and no questions and get answers. This is really fun, kind of like the crazy 8 balls.

Michael’s lucky he gave me the watch because I had sworn off Timex watches when I lived in Kansas City, Missouri. I worked on the 23rd floor of the Power and Light Building in downtown Kansas City. One night, leaving for home, my Timex bracelet watch came off of my wrist and fell between the elevator and the floor and fell more than 23 floors into the bottom of the elevator shaft. A floor worker went and retrieved my watch. The casing was broken but the watch was still working. I wrote to Timex telling them my story thinking my story would make it into a Timex ad on television. Well, it didn’t. They thanked me for telling them my story but it wasn’t anything they could use. Couldn’t use? A watch falling more than 23 floors in an elevator shaft is definitely more interesting than being buried in the sand for five years at the beach. Don’t cha think?
Since that time, a Timex has not adorned my wrist….until now. But, my baby gave it to me and I will wear it.

There is not much else going on. I had my physical therapy appointment tonight and I don’t want to sit too long in front of the computer. I shall end this here and bid you all goodnight.

mz. em


Quote of the Day:

“I shut my eyes in order to see.”
— Paul Gaugin


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Waxing moon in Sagittarius > Capricorn – 9:01 a.m.
14th day of lunar cycle
Full Moon

My first memory of music is of my mother singing to me at bedtime. I don’t remember the songs but I loved the music. I don’t remember any others singing to me.

My favorite music memory is of visiting Aunt Lish in Tonganoxie, Kansas for the summer. I don’t remember which summer but it was before I became a teenager. Aunt Lish had been told by her older sister not to sing out loud because she didn’t sing very well. So, she didn’t sing. One time, we went for a car ride out through the country roads and we began to sing and sing at the top of our lungs we did. What a good time we had. I thought she sang very well indeed.

I don’t think I sing very well. I have a hard time carrying a tune. I need to have an instrument playing or be sitting/standing next to someone who does sing and then I’m okay. I have been known to sing in my car, by myself and the obvious – the shower.

I love music.

I like some better than others. I love country western. Rap, errrr, well, maybe for a few short minutes. Classical music is a wonderful way to spend a rainy afternoon. Rock and roll, well I know how old I am because I know all the words! Reggae is a favorite as well as Latin. Celtic is my heritage and I love it all.

The first albums I remember listening to were 78’s of Bing Crosby’s “An Irish Lullaby;” Burl Ives, “A Little Bitty Tear;” and Judy Garland’s, “Somewhere Over the Rainbow.” There might have been a few Nat King Cole songs but it’s been so long ago and 78’s, well, they’re a collector’s item now.

My first 45 single was Chubby Checker’s “The Twist.” My dad built me a 45 player from a project kit in Popular Science. I loved that little player. It wasn’t pink with a handle but a solid wood frame that was not meant to be carried around. After that came the Beach Boys, the Beatles and Petula Clark. I remember singing “I Wanna Hold Your Hand” so many times, my mother said she would remove mine if I sang it anymore. There was also “I’m Henry The Eighth” by Herman and the Hermits another favorite of mine from the English invasion. By this time, I was living in Florida.

With a move back to Maine, I must have been between the ages of 14-15 and I saw an ad for one of the record companies to purchase albums through them. What sold me was the stereo player they offered in addition to a number of albums. Hot dog, I was in heaven! Mother about had a coronary but she didn’t say no, just that I had to be responsible for the payments. Typical parent-speak, as I’m sure we all remember.

Michael sings to me now. He is a very good singer and I love listening to him. There are times he will call me up at work and sing me a song because he had been thinking about me. Or, he will e-mail the words to a song we like and I can hear the tune in my head and be smiling for the rest of the day.

Music has always been important to me. It gets me pepped up, calms me down when it’s stressful and puts me to sleep at night.

What is your first memory of music?

mz. em


Quote of the Day:

“Anger is the firestorm that signals the death of our old life . . . Anger is not the action itself. It is action’s invitation.”
— Julia Cameron, “The Artist’s Way”


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Waxing moon in Sagittarius
13th day of lunar cycle

1:20 a.m. I’m awake; listening to the radio and watching the moon. Of course, writing here as well. Ah, I love weekends! Michael is in the other room doing computer things. I can hear the ocean tonight.

Normally, you would not find me awake at this hour. Getting up at 5:15 a.m. during the week curtails late nights. Truth be known, I am a early morning person but being able to stay up late is fun too.

8:50 a.m. I’m up and feeling pretty good. Michael is still sleeping. I’ll wake him shortly so he doesn’t sleep the day away. Then again, he has this next week off and could sleep in if he wants to stay up late tonight. I’m the one that will need to be in bed the regular time.


Ever notice how two people in love seem to be surrounded by a shining light. They beam, glow, hover above the rest of us. They are definitely on a different plane.

I’m beginning to realize that this shining light isn’t reserved for people in love. I see this light around my friends who love to ride their motorcycles. You see it in their eyes when they tell you of a ride just taken; where they have been; the experiences they’ve had. This light surrounds babies as they try new things, when they are in their parents’ arms. Is this a halo?

I know I have this shining light when I’m working on a creative project. I’m in the moment. Picking colors, photos and words and putting them together to create something that pleases me.

It would seem to me then this light is for anything we love so immensely that we forget our egos; we forget time and melt into the moment.


Looking back at my Friday Five and the fifth question was what were my weekend plans?

Sleeping in

Cleaning the house

Unpacking some boxes; and

Watching movies

I’ve slept in the past two mornings. Love it. LOVE IT!

I cleaned my bathroom except for the floor and the shower doors. Michael has fixed the shower/bath nob so now I can take a bath. This I will do tonight.

I unpacked some boxes. Nah. I looked at them though.

We watched some movies. “Best Little Whorehouse in Texas,” “From Hell,” “The Man Who Wasn’t There,” “Oceans Eleven,” began watching “A Stranger Among Us,” but it was slow going and a bit boring to which we began channel surfing before it was half way through.

Kind of a quiet weekend on the movie front but we got some other things done and enjoyed each other’s company.

I hope you all have had a good weekend.

mz. em


Quote of the Day:
“Life is not always what one wants it to be, but to make the best of it as it is, is the only way of being happy.”
— Jennie Jerome Churchill

Currently Reading:
“A Bill Damen Mystery – In a Family Way” by James Calder
“Simple Abundance: A Daybook of Comfort and Joy” by Sarah Ban Breathnach
“Opening our Hearts, Transforming our Losses” by Al-Anon Family Groups

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Waxing moon in Scorpio>Sagittarius – 4:42 a.m. PDT
12th day of lunar cycle

1. I woke up.

2. Manipulated my website here a little bit more. Working with Andrew to change the font and then I should be done except for adding entries.

3. Prepared fried egg sandwiches for Michael and me. He was hungry and I guess I was too. I know it’s not the healthiest thing to eat but it sure was good.


I hope the universe rewards risk taking. I’m taking a risk here by writing most every day. It’s a risk because most days I wonder what I will write. Most days I feel like I have nothing to say. The risk is sitting down and just typing and seeing what comes up. I don’t know what I want to accomplish here other than I write something I like and that my readers like what I have to say. If they don’t like it, maybe my writing will have given them something to reflect upon.

Today’s focus is integrating love for beings.

My initial reaction was ugh. Yes, I can love Michael and Spike, my house, where I live, Ruby A and my friends. Yet there are people out there in the world that think, feel, do and say things that are against everything I believe in. How can I love these beings?

One of the tasks in another focus was to “imagine someone whom you dislike. Enfold that person’s image in your love, without forcing yourself to like them.” (Taken from “The Essene Book of Days 2002”) Even this was something to consider but doable.

For today all I can be is willing. I can be willing to surround them in love and not have to like them. This I can do willingly.

What about you?

mz. em


“The universe will reward you for taking risks on its behalf.”

–Shakti Gawain


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